Bedtime snack...

My boy wanted a little snack before bed. A hard boiled egg and orange juice was requested. I got his food ready and then laid back on the couch and listened to my boy and his dad have a little conversation.

"Dad, what does nervous mean?'... Dad replied, 'It means being scared about something or worried about something."

"Oh, I'm nervous about kids not sharing toys with me." A fitting response from a 4 year old.

He ate up his eggs and drank his juice, all while fidgeting in his chair and talking non stop to dad. I just laid back and took it all in. My little boy... saying words like "nervous" and understanding what that meant. Wanting a healthy snack late at night instead of ice cream. Actually being able to sit in a chair for 10 1/2 minutes without getting up. He's growing up so fast.

One thing about having one child is being able to just soak in every moment of him that I can. From the first words that come out of his mouth in the morning to his last mutterings at night. I get to focus on him, for all of it. I'm trying hard to not spoil him, to not let him have his way all the time, to remember that he is a kid and not one of the adults. But he has his dad and myself wrapped tight around his little finger, and we just adore him.

He asks everyday when he's going to have a sibling. We can't see a baby without asking if we are going to be able to take them home with us. Someday my boy, someday. But I'm rather enjoying our threesome right now. There isn't much I can do about it so I'm going to enjoy and savor every moment of "us".

We are in a time right now of no diapers, no waking up at night, no more help with socks and shoes, no more say in what he wears. But with this phase comes more time to focus on other things, and I'm excited to see him grow and learn more everyday.

Seeing my boy sit tall in his chair, carry on an adultish conversation, and munch on his egg, made me so grateful that I get the privilege to see him grow. It is a privilege, and I am one thankful mama for this moment tonight.