Introducing the "I'm going to eat fruit whenever I want" diet...

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So remember when I talked about trying out the 4 hour body diet here. Well... I lasted for 2 1/2 days. Pitiful I know. But it became a moral problem that I had with the diet. You see, it's a strict one, and I tend to not agree with most super strict diets. But on this one... absolutely no fruit! No FRUIT! He makes a statement that our ancestors were not eating Florida oranges when they were struggling through a long cold winter or something like that... so we don't need to either.

So I went my 2 1/2 days without any fruit and I thought a lot about it. I have to say it was almost a spiritual decision that I could no longer be a part of such an act. I almost felt like I was saying...

Dear God,

You know these perfectly portioned incredible things that you placed on the earth for us to enjoy... fruit? How much variety you gave us, each contained in their own perfectly created peel. That ripen and rot quickly as if to persuade me to eat them often. Every color of the rainbow imaginable fruit. Some sweet, some tangy, that crunch in my mouth and spark every taste bud that I have. That keep us full and are packed full of healthy fiber. That give me just enough sweetness that I don't go running for chocolate at 3 PM on the dot every.single.day...

Ya those... well... I'm not going to be eating them anymore, I'm trying to get skinny.

I still love you and your wonderful creations though... promise,
Meg

You see... it just didn't work!!! I felt like I was going against something that I fundamentally believed in with every bit of my soul.

So that was that.

I really do love fruit, I find it completely amazing. Have you ever peeled and orange or a grapefruit and looked at all the little membranes filled with their juicy fluid? Amazing! I made a salad for Christmas dinner last year that had pomegranate in it, and that was the first time I've ever peeled a pomegranate myself before. It was the coolest thing ever!! All those tiny little seeds, plump and full of goodness. Not to mention that they are HEALTHY!

I don't want to live in a world or life without miraculous, amazing, fruit. 

I've spent the last few weeks re-vamping my eating habits and figuring out what I want my "diet" to consist of and I've decided that I want to feed my body good nutritious food that makes me happy. I want to NOURISH my body. Fruit is at the top of the list. Along with beans, vegetables, peppermint tea, honey, fish, chicken, quinoa, nuts, salad, cheese (especially the bleu variety) and... the occasional girl scout cookie {maybe not so nourishing for the body... but for the soul}.

What's my favorite fruit? Right now it's grapefruit. I like to peel it and divide it in half. I take out all the middle goodness and throw all the pulp away. Then I eat one half and put the other half in the fridge for the next day. I love it!

What's your favorite fruit? And what's your favorite fruit to eat to nourish your body?

Leap...

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I've been thinking a lot about faith lately. How we need to actually have times in life where we need to exercise our faith in order for it to grow and become stronger.

Moving back home to Utah was a really scary thought for me. I knew that we wanted to move back, but just because you want something doesn't mean it's the best decision or what you should do. I knew that my husband really, really wanted to move back, but there was so much at risk... this was not a decision that I could make or do just based on want.

So I did what I usually do in situations such as this. I prayed. I prayed a lot. I prayed that if this was what we should do that I would know it, somehow. My answer came the first weekend in September. I was driving up to central Utah to go camping with my in laws. My boy was asleep in the back of the car and I was longingly gazing at the beautiful mountains around me. Is it time to come back? I wondered and prayed for the thousandth time....

Yes, I felt it throughout my whole being.

Yes it was time. This was what we needed to do. And somehow, all the little details of life would work out so that we could.

Coming back was a path of great resistance. We both had jobs in Vegas, something we did not have up in Utah. My husband was even offered an amazing nursing job in Vegas, straight out of school {I haven't told this to very many people, because then I just feel like we are super crazy}. He turned it down. When he told me he turned it down I felt really good about that decision. Somehow this was all going to work out, I just didn't know how. Trent was delayed in taking his nursing licensure test by two whole months due to misplaced paperwork. At the time this felt like huge problem, but in those two months we were able to save up enough money with both of us working for us to live on when we got here. That money lasted us until last week when he started his new job. Huge blessing. We also needed to sell our little condo that was worth half of what we had bought it for 3 years earlier due to the housing crash in Vegas. We waited till August to put it up on the market and attempt to short sale it. We had an offer two days later, in cash, for our asking price. We still had to do a short sale, but it was not as bad as I feared it would be. Our closing papers came as we were driving the moving truck up to Utah... I miss my cute little place, but it worked out for the best. One of my biggest hold ups... health insurance. Hello!?! I'm in remission for cancer, and leaving my job meant I would lose coverage. Have faith Meg, have faith. This was the biggest pill for me to swallow, and like everything else... this too has fallen into place and we were able to keep me covered until new insurance started. It's been a blessing to watch these small and simple miracles take place as we've made this transition in our lives.

In my mind we needed to have a job before we made the move, but as I realized this was not going to happen I also realized that sometimes we can't see how things are going to work out. If we did, then it wouldn't be required for us to have faith. I had my confirmation that this was the right thing for us, and now I needed to put my trust and faith in that we would be taken care of, somehow, some way...

I wish I could say that I had perfect faith through this process but I did not. So many times I said, maybe we did the wrong thing... we should have stayed in Vegas... things are not going to work out. My poor husband. I don't know how he stands my wavering faith. But he does, and for that I'm grateful.

As I have sat back these last three months since we made the move I have been in complete awe as to how everything has worked out. Trent would not have been able to get the job he did get if we had still been down in Vegas, sending in applications online. The little details of our lives that have been thrown up in the air are all falling back into place right where they need to be.

I'm grateful for this experience and what it has taught me. There were lots of people who I'm sure thought we were totally crazy for doing this, at this time, in this economy... but it was right for us. Every day I feel great peace in knowing that we made the right move for our family.

I still miss Las Vegas everyday... I miss my friends, I miss my amazing job and co-workers, I miss the warm winter, I miss our jewish grandma that we adopted, I miss my ward, I miss teaching lessons in Relief Society, I miss being able to walk to Target whenever I pleased, I miss my life down there. But I know that I'm where I need to be now. I know that this is where we want to raise our little boy. I know that we will be blessed for doing what we felt was right... we already have been. I'm grateful that we were able to take that leap, and that the landing has been wonderful.

I'm excited for this next step in life... whatever it may be, and am grateful that I am able to take it at home, with my family and friends by my side. I'm thankful that my faith has been strengthened through this process, and hopefully next time I'm required to leap I can do it without hesitation.

... and happy leap day by the way...

Last week of February...

Love this print

Feeling so happy these days. I feel like life is finally starting to settle down and I'm loving it. Time with my boy at home, getting into working on projects that have been on the back burner for a long time now. It feels really good. I can't believe February is almost over. Here's what I've been up to (or into) lately...

 - Can't get enough of Once Upon A Time. I've been watching it online all week, a little late to jump on board. Such a cute series.
 - Working hard on a quiet book for my boy and his cousin. It's taking twice as long because, making two just does that! But I'm so happy with how it's coming together and excited to have it to bring to church with us.
 - I really love lace. I've never been much of a girlie girl but I've been really drawn to lace lately. Trying to work it into my wardrobe and home little by little.
 - I've been watching The Bachelor too. I get sucked in every time. I think that he's going to pick Courtney, and I think that they deserve each other ;).
 - I've tried curling my hair a few times... sadly it's still too short. I just look like a poof ball. Still waiting patiently for it to grow so I can have some fun with it again!
 - Saw some rananculous plants at Home Depot today. I love that little flower. I've been thinking about getting some to plant around but I kill almost everything I plant. So...
 - Visited my cute friend Kimberlee and her brand new baby at the hospital. He's the perfect little boy. So happy for their family! I loved holding that sweet little guy.
 - Making a list of things we need to get before we move into our own little place. There were lots of things that we threw away or donated when we moved. Our couch, dishes, rolling pin, pizza cutter, etc, etc, etc. I want to get things gathered as much as I can before we move.
 - I'm also trying to get new things going so that it feels fresh when I put my house together again. New pictures on the wall, a fresh coat of paint on my boys dresser and little rocking chair... A fresh start feels good.
 - Melatonin is my new best friend at night. I really wish I could just lay down and fall asleep like a "normal" person but that doesn't seem to be the case for me. I don't know why I have such a hard time getting to sleep! Drives me crazy. But this has helped a lot and I don't feel super groggy in the morning... and it's a natural sleep remedy which I like.

There's my little list for now. Hopefully I can have something to show for this time I've been being crafty with soon!

I like being wrong sometimes...

Well, as it turns out we were wrong.
Dead. Wrong.

HE GOT THE JOB!!!!

We are so happy, excited, relieved, thrilled, ready to move onto this next chapter in our lives!

It's kind of a long crazy story why we thought he wasn't going to get it, but it's not a story that is fit for the blog. But either way, we are just so relieved and excited for this!

I'm so so grateful. It's in Utah but in a different area than we've ever lived so that will be exciting, we like exploring new places. And we will still be able to be around for family things and to be by our friends here, which is why we wanted to move back in the first place. So we are happy campers around here tonight.

Happy indeed.

Happiness...

I've been feeling a little down lately. I know that happiness is a choice and regardless of our circumstances we have the choice of how we will react and what our attitude is. But I still find myself having a hard time being happy when life feels so so so hard.

We finally had a great lead on a job for my husband. One that would be so perfect for him and our family. It was looking like things were going to work out and they seemed to really like him. But as the weekend approached the story changed, and it's not looking so hopeful anymore. I'm pretty heartbroken about it.

That among a few other mountains standing directly in front of me have left me feeling pretty sad. I'm trying hard to reach deep and find some joy in my heart to buoy up my spirits.

Despite taking a few steps back this weekend we went on a little excursion with our family, and found ourselves at the base of a volcano. It was a beautiful day, with blue skies and the warm sun shining down on us. And I think for about one hour this weekend I just soaked up the world around me and left my worries at the head of the trail. We took our nieces and nephews up the volcano.

We started out the hike pushing my triplet nieces and nephew in the stroller but soon found it would be much easier to carry them. I have to say I've never hiked while carrying a baby before. It was wonderful!

We left the babies and my sister's in law when the hike became more of a hike than a walk, and my husband and I took the other 5 kids up to the top.

Here we are at the top! When I saw this picture I thought, "Wow... look how happy I am!" and I was. I haven't been hiking in a long time which is something that I really love to do. Spending time outside doing something physical with the sun shining down on you really is healing to ones soul.

My goal is to make this smiling face the norm around here, not the rare exception. My plan is to spend the day counting my blessings and finding joy in my life instead of dwelling on the setbacks. To try to view the way things work out as a redirection to something that could be even better. Here is my list so far...

1- My husband remains so positive regardless of discouragement which is such a blessing. He is my rock.
2- He did start a temporary nursing job today which is such a huge blessing. It's just for a short time and doesn't offer any type of benefits but it will give him experience and it's something!
3- My in laws are rockstars and I'm pretty sure I owe them my life for how much they have helped us.
4- That I have a spunky little boy who climbed into bed with me today and told me he thinks blankets should be called "huggy buggies" and asked for a gorilla cheese sandwich for lunch.
5- That we are all healthy.
6- That my hair gets longer everyday.
7- The knowledge that I can "cast my burdens on the Lord and trust in his constant care" which I am trying to do everyday.

Here's to hope... and happiness.

Apples...

My husband's aunt and uncle are fruit farmers here in Utah and we stopped by the other day to get some of their left over apples.

We took one box and dried them all... and they only lasted a week! They were so super yummy, they went really fast. So we went back down to get some more...

We came home with a trunk full of apples!!!! We've been running 3 dehydrators day and night, and we have bearly made a dent in our pile of apples.

We are swimming in yummy apple treats right now. We figure we'd just make a whole bunch to give away to our families and friends since they are so good and the apples needed to be used or they would have just been thrown out.

So yummy!

 ***My pictures aren't the greatest right now, I'm trying to blog with pictures from my phone, but my phone is craptastic. It's not a fancy Iphone or anything, it's a crappy Boost Mobile phone that has been dropped 15,000 times. But it's what I have right now so I'm trying to make the most of it!***

hat + leg warmers...

I love seeing cute babies wearing things that I made for them.

This is my sisters darling boy... We like our babies chubby in this family!

Getting serious... finally...

I feel like this pig... not wanting to eat my vegetables right now...

I'm starting a diet with my father in law and some of my sister in laws are doing it. It's called the 4 Hour Body in case anyone is interested. I really do have some weight to lose so I'm going to give this a shot and see how it goes. I don't really like diets, but the reason why I'm going ahead and trying this one is because you cut out gluten from your diet. I've heard lots of talk about how cutting gluten from your diet can help women get preggo who are having a hard time. So I figured it was worth a shot, if nothing else to get off gluten for a while to see if it helps me at all. And if I lose weight along with it, that would be wonderful!

Today was day 1. It wasn't so bad. It seems so strange to not eat any bread products. You can have carbs in the form of beans. I love beans so hopefully I can stick to it.

My father in law is super into it. So tonight we weighed in, took measurements, calculated our body fat percentage with his nifty little scale thing. The kicker here... I let my mother in law take before pictures of me. YIKES!!! It was a little brutal. I didn't think that it had gotten that bad until I saw the pictures. Seriously, it was not pretty. The first set of pictures I kept my shirt on but then they (husband and mother in law) talked me into taking them in my sports bra. So yes, it was brutal. My MIL has some good black mail for me that's for sure.

At least I have a pretty face right? That's what I thought when I saw the pictures. So I'm going to put them up on my wall so I can see them everyday to help me stay on track here.

I really just want to feel good about myself again. Something I've noticed since moving to Utah is people are constantly running into other people that they know. It doesn't matter where I am, someone is running into someone. Crap! What if I run into someone and they see me like this? And for the record I have run into two different people that I know and it was a happy reunion and nothing but good feelings and smiles came from that... but still, that thought crosses my mind a lot. I want to feel good about myself whatever the situation and not feel bad about the way that I look now. So here we go! Day 2 is tomorrow...

... and no I will never post my before pictures online so don't ask.

Bedtime snack...

My boy wanted a little snack before bed. A hard boiled egg and orange juice was requested. I got his food ready and then laid back on the couch and listened to my boy and his dad have a little conversation.

"Dad, what does nervous mean?'... Dad replied, 'It means being scared about something or worried about something."

"Oh, I'm nervous about kids not sharing toys with me." A fitting response from a 4 year old.

He ate up his eggs and drank his juice, all while fidgeting in his chair and talking non stop to dad. I just laid back and took it all in. My little boy... saying words like "nervous" and understanding what that meant. Wanting a healthy snack late at night instead of ice cream. Actually being able to sit in a chair for 10 1/2 minutes without getting up. He's growing up so fast.

One thing about having one child is being able to just soak in every moment of him that I can. From the first words that come out of his mouth in the morning to his last mutterings at night. I get to focus on him, for all of it. I'm trying hard to not spoil him, to not let him have his way all the time, to remember that he is a kid and not one of the adults. But he has his dad and myself wrapped tight around his little finger, and we just adore him.

He asks everyday when he's going to have a sibling. We can't see a baby without asking if we are going to be able to take them home with us. Someday my boy, someday. But I'm rather enjoying our threesome right now. There isn't much I can do about it so I'm going to enjoy and savor every moment of "us".

We are in a time right now of no diapers, no waking up at night, no more help with socks and shoes, no more say in what he wears. But with this phase comes more time to focus on other things, and I'm excited to see him grow and learn more everyday.

Seeing my boy sit tall in his chair, carry on an adultish conversation, and munch on his egg, made me so grateful that I get the privilege to see him grow. It is a privilege, and I am one thankful mama for this moment tonight.

The Barn...

For the past few months we've been trying to find my husband a job, him being a brand new nurse and all. It's proving to be a very difficult task. We knew that it would be, but it's so frustrating, really. Who wouldn't want to hire a 6'4", strong, handsome male nurse who graduated the top of his class? I know that it's a very competitive job market, but we are really hoping that something works out soon. So our days right now consist of filling out applications, going to interviews, and trying to fill in the rest of our days with something semi productive. You know that saying, "Work like everything depends on you and pray like everything depends on the Lord." Yup, that pretty much sums up what we are trying to do right now.

After Christmas ended and life wasn't so full and festive anymore, I decided we (okay - mainly he...) needed a good project to fill up some of this time we have on our hands. We decided to make the barn I've been dreaming about for quite a while.

We are lucky in that we are staying with my in laws right now (they are so so great!) and my father in law had most of the stuff we needed in his garage. All of the lumber we used is stuff that he had sitting around. We used scraps from the canoe he built over the summer for the trim work and fences and the main structure of the barn was made out of a piece of plywood he had leaning against the wall. The only stuff that we bought was the red paint ($3 sample can at Home Depot) and the hardware. It came to less than $20 to put this barn together.

And here it is...

There is a barn that we drive by a lot out here that has a ram skull over the door and I love it! Husband found this bull skull that is suppose to be a ceiling fan pull. My boy was scared of it until I told him it was going to scare all the Gremlin's from coming into the barn (yes... my husband let my 4 year old boy watch Gremlin's and life has not been the same since). Now he's okay with it.

We made it as a tri-fold where the sides open up at the back. The back wall is all open windows. The windows on the side work really well as handles to move this big barn around.

I also love the roof. The shingles are not individual shingles glued down, but rows of faux shingles that my husband made. But I love that we got the look of individual shingles without the hassle of doing it that way.

Here is the inside when the barn is opened up.

I thought about painting the inside but then husband pointed out that barns are never painted on the inside. They are usually left just raw wood. So I just painted the fencing that we did to make it stand out more. I actually like that you can see the black stamped words that were on the plywood.

We did three stories. Two with stalls and then an upper loft. Some of my favorite features are:
- The hoist in the center to pull the animals up to the second level.
- Real tree branches that we used as support beams for the different floors.
- Rope with little hooks to keep the animals in their stalls.

We had a great time making the barn! I absolutely love it. It was a lot of work, but so worth it to have this awesome barn for my boy to play with. We need to gather some more barn animals and little hay bales for it but that will come with time.  We are also going to build some little fences that can be used on the outside of the barn.

I found myself staring at it on the floor the other night, so happy with how it turned out. It reminded me that if you work really hard at something that you can make your dreams a reality. That may sound corny, but I have been dreaming up this barn for a while and now it's here. We are fighting hard to make another dream of ours a reality. We aren't giving up on our dream to live back in Utah with our families again yet. We've given up a lot to try and make this work. I don't know if it's going to pan out the way that we want it to, but we aren't done fighting for it yet! Fingers are triple quadruple crossed that someone will take a chance on my sweet husband. I mean, the man made a beautiful barn out of scraps of cast off wood. He is such a great hard worker. He works hard at everything he does, and whoever hires him will be so lucky that they did, I'm 100% sure of that. Until then, I need to figure out a new project for us. Or just enjoy playing with my my son's new barn for the time being.

Flannel...

The other day I went shopping and spent an hour looking through the women's section and didn't find anything that I liked. Then I spent 5 minutes in the men's section and found this flannel shirt. I'm in love. I was giddy walking out of the store. I've always wanted a flannel shirt. Nevermind the fact that my father in law was wearing almost the exact same shirt today. I hope that my husband doesn't mind this slight step away from femininity... cause I might be living in this from now on. I've always secretly wanted to be a cowgirl or a lumberjack... now I can at least look like one.

It felt appropriate to wear it while working on the barn today. We didn't get it done for Christmas like I had hoped, but we started it just after. It's coming together so nicely! The walls are up and the roof is ready to go on.

Golden 2012...

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I decided that 2012 is going to be an amazing year for me. The last 3 years have been so hard, and I'm soooo ready for an absolutely fabulous year! Now that I'm back home and no longer working full time, I'm really going to try and make every effort to have beautiful experiences this year for me and my family.

Something else that is happening this year is that I will be celebrating my Golden Birthday, which means I will be turning 29 on the 29th of September. So I want to make it great, and really enjoy this last bit of my twenties.

I've decided that instead of making resolutions this year I was going to make a list of 29 things I want to do before my 29th birthday. Many of these things are projects that I've already started and are half done, or things that I keep saying I'm going to do and then never do. Here's the big list:

1- Go on a hike to Lake Mary (where husband and I got engaged)
2- Make a hexagon quilt
3- Make a quiet book for my boy
4- Run in a race (5K or half marathon... either way!)
5- Grow my own basil and make homemade pesto from it
6- Make an apron for myself (I've honestly never done this)
7- Lose 30 lbs or get pregnant (cause if I get preggo I probably wont be losing the weight this year)
8- Do all of the temple work for 5 ancestors (I'll explain this better when I do it)
9- Find a great lipstick shade
10- Add 5 new items to my Etsy shop
11- Participate in a craft fair
12- Finish the quilt for our bed
13- Organize and re-label all of our files
14- Build a toy barn for my boy
15- Go on a date to The Little Acorn, where I first met my husband
16- Do a 30 day sugar fast (I'm anticipating this being the hardest thing to accomplish on the list. Ummm... just kidding, #7 will be the hardest.)
17- Organize all of my recipes into a binder
18- Take my boy to see the Buffalo's
19- Take a yoga class
20- Write more consistently in my personal journal
21- Get some house plants, and not kill them
22- Pay off all my medical bills
23- Learn how to use different saws and get more into woodworking
24- Organize a "command center" for my home
25- Go to Yellowstone for our 10th year of marriage (this is where we honeymooned)
26- Finish the stupid Santa cross stitch that I've been working on for the past 8 years!!! - and frame it for Christmas
27- Exercise at least 4 days per week
28- Organize my pantry better
29- Do my hair in different ways other than straight down at least once a week

Honestly, if I could accomplish half of this list I would be super happy about that. The whole list would be amazing! I'll post the items up here when I get them done. Here's to a super fun and productive year!

Christmas...

Christmas this year has been so fun. We've had family time, family time, and more family time. It's been wonderful. We had our family Christmas party my hubby's side a few weeks ago and we were in charge of doing the food. We decided to go all out and do Mexican food. It was so yummy!

Not super traditional for our family, but it was fun and everyone seemed to love it anyway. Lots of fun visiting with cousins etc. My boy loved playing with his little baby cousins, in the middle of the baby blanket (and yes, the striped babies are triplets).

Wisemen in the nativity...

I'm going to try to be a better blogger. However, my camera disappeared at a family Christmas party so that may put a damper on things. I'm sure it was mistakenly tossed in the bottom of someones diaper bag by accident, but never the less it's gone. So I stole all these pictures from my brother in law's fb account, and I'm grateful to have family members who like to take pictures of my boy so that I can have some!

My Christmas Card...

This is my cute little family. I don't like to send out Christmas cards, so I don't. But I do like to take at least one picture a year of my family, trying to look cute, to give to the grandma's. I also like having a picture every year so that we can see how we've grown and what we look like.

I love the one that I got this year. In front of an old wooden cabin with a rock fireplace. Darling. And my boy who still lets his mom hold him... even more darling.


I hope that you all had a wonderful Christmas today! Mine was spent surrounded by family and those that I love. I'm a lucky blessed girl.

Mr. Claus...

I think my little dude is excited for Christmas this year.

 And I'm excited that he asked Mr. Claus for a $15 pterodactyl toy... yes, that is totally doable little man.

We are going super low key this year. All of our Christmas stuff is in storage, so no tree or decorations for us. But we have lots of Christmas excitement going on with this little guy. Kids always seem to make holiday's more fun don't they.