When I started up this "crafting" blog I had so many great ideas and intentions. I could not have picked more horrible timing... that's for sure. The same time I opened up my little shop and started blogging on here I found out I was pregnant, had a horrible pregnancy filled with complications, and experienced the end result of losing my little boy at 21 weeks. The past few months since his birth and death have been very hard, confusing, sad, depressing, and heart wrenching for me.
I am feeling a little bruised at this point... but full of a lot of hope.
My mother in law lost a little baby when she was six months old to SIDS. A few weeks ago one of my sister in laws told me that the only way that their mom found to deal with her grief was to garden. She loved to work in the garden. The long peaceful hours in the sun spent digging with her hands in the dirt, creating something beautiful and wholesome. I've been thinking about that a lot lately... what is my garden? What can I dig my hands into to help me work through this grieving process? I can't actually "garden" in this little condo that we live in... but I can sew.
I love sewing. I love how it feels to hear the hum of the machine going... to feel the fabric slip through your fingers. To create something beautiful from nothing... I don't sew as much as I would like to. The times where I have sat down to sew I feel something stir inside of me that I've been ignoring and suppressing since I've become a mom... me.
So I've decided that sewing will be my garden. I have so many projects that I want to make and create and work on that I haven't been able to do this year because of everything that has happened. I'm ready to dust off my machine and get to work.
I'm going to be opening my Etsy shop back up in a few days and I'm really excited about that. I'm ready to get to work and start creating again... and that feels really good.
I am feeling a little bruised at this point... but full of a lot of hope.
My mother in law lost a little baby when she was six months old to SIDS. A few weeks ago one of my sister in laws told me that the only way that their mom found to deal with her grief was to garden. She loved to work in the garden. The long peaceful hours in the sun spent digging with her hands in the dirt, creating something beautiful and wholesome. I've been thinking about that a lot lately... what is my garden? What can I dig my hands into to help me work through this grieving process? I can't actually "garden" in this little condo that we live in... but I can sew.
I love sewing. I love how it feels to hear the hum of the machine going... to feel the fabric slip through your fingers. To create something beautiful from nothing... I don't sew as much as I would like to. The times where I have sat down to sew I feel something stir inside of me that I've been ignoring and suppressing since I've become a mom... me.
So I've decided that sewing will be my garden. I have so many projects that I want to make and create and work on that I haven't been able to do this year because of everything that has happened. I'm ready to dust off my machine and get to work.
I'm going to be opening my Etsy shop back up in a few days and I'm really excited about that. I'm ready to get to work and start creating again... and that feels really good.
so excited you found a wonderful outlet. i can't wait to see what you create!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're getting back into your passion! I need ideas, and they come from you :)
ReplyDeleteI can't wait for you shop to open again. I have orders I want to place.
ReplyDeleteI cant wait to see all the wonderful things that you will create!
ReplyDeleteThat's great that you have a hobby that you really enjoy, and something that helps you cope. I wish I had a talent/hobby, but I just don't for some reason.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comment on my blog. I'm so sorry you're going through the same thing. It's something so horrible that I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy. Losing a child has to be one of the worse things in the world. I pray that with time your broken heart will heal although there will always be an empty space for that missing child. I hope that our babies are friends in heaven and they are looking down on us and keeping us safe until we can see them again. God Bless!
ReplyDeleteP.S. Don't worry about the headstone. Take your time and do it when you are ready.
Thank you so much for your sweet comment! Going through all of this has been SO hard and SO confusing! I am sure you know! But reading your comment has given me some hope and I appreciate that so much:) I am so sorry that you lost your baby at 21 weeks, that is awful! Losing a baby is one of the hardest things. You grow attached to it the moment you find out you are pregnant! I am so glad that you have found a hobby to help you through this difficult time. I will keep you in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI too lost a baby a few months ago and have been dealing with the pain and frustration and anger. Finding something else to create while I try to heal has been harder then expected but the most benificial. I wish you all the best, one day at a time :)
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